Billie Lourd shares emotional tribute to late mother Carrie Fisher

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Billie Lourd shares emotional tribute to late mother Carrie Fisher

Billie Lourd and Carrie Fisher. (Photo by Getty)

Billie Lourd admitted she felt “saddened but grateful” as she celebrated her mother’s eighth birthday Carrie Fishers dead.

Lourd opened up about her complicated feelings about the somber event, sharing an emotional tribute alongside a throwback image of herself with her late mother. via Instagram on Friday, December 27.

“It has been eight years since my mother passed away. As my son would say, “That’s a lot!” I always dread this day. I spend so much time leading up to it thinking about how terrible I’m going to feel,” Lourd, 32, wrote, “And my fear is usually justified. This morning I woke up with a dark cloud above me. But when my children woke up, the dark cloud disappeared and was replaced by bright glowing sunshine. Her death anniversary is like an emotional tropical storm. It rains much of the day, but between storms the light is more beautiful than on any day without storm clouds. There are no rainbows without rain.”

The actress then used a comparison to explain what it felt like to struggle with her feelings of sadness.

“There’s a great one Anne Lamott In this quote, grief is “like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly – that still hurts when it gets cold, but you learn to dance while limping.” And that perfectly describes how I feel today,” Lourd wrote.

She continued, “Yes, the grief weather is cold and yes, I may be limping, but I am definitely dancing through life (oops, I misquoted?). And I’m actually a better dancer because I limp. My grief has given me a deeper appreciation for all of life’s little moments. So today I am sad (saddened but grateful). I look at the magic of my son and daughter and I know she is a piece of that magic. And I feel all things. The sadness. The joy. The desire. The magic. The void. The fullness. And it all coexists in a profound way. I send my love to everyone who needs it. ❤️”

Since Fisher’s death, Billie has welcomed son Kingston, 4, and daughter Jackson Joanne, 2, with partner Austen Rydell.

Fisher died in December 2016 at the age of 60 after suffering a heart attack. A day later, Fisher’s mother, Debbie Reynoldsdied of a stroke at the age of 84.

In the years since the deaths of her mother and grandmother, Lourd has spoken often about her loss.

Last year, Lourd commemorated the anniversary of her mother’s death with another poignant post.

“It’s been seven years since my mother died (but who’s counting? I guess?),” Lourd wrote in December 2023. “Every anniversary brings a different version of my grief. Some make me furious, some make me cry all day, some make me feel dissociated and empty, some make me feel nothing, some make me feel guilty for feeling nothing, and some make me I feel all those things at once. ”

The Shout queens alum also acknowledged in December 2021 that coping with grief is “never easy.”

“I am in a different stage of grief at every moment of the day,” Lourd wrote via Instagram. “My sadness is a multi-course meal with many complicated ingredients. An appetizer of bargaining, followed by an anger appetizer with a hint of depression, acceptance for the appetizer and of course a little denial for dessert.

She continued: “And that’s how grief should be – all at once – actually there’s no ‘should’ in grief – sadness is just what it is for you and that’s how it ‘should be.’”