Inside Holly Madison’s wildest confessions about Hugh Hefner
Madison revealed more behind-the-scenes details on the December 13, 2021 episode of the Power: Hugh Hefner podcastincluding her “traumatic” first sexual encounter with Hefner.
“I was drunk,” she said of the experience. “He was literally pushed on top of me. And after it happened, I was just mortified and embarrassed, and it had a much bigger emotional impact on me than I expected.”
She reportedly didn’t expect to have sex that night and instead thought it would be more of a first date.
“I thought it would be more of a thing where I saw what was happening, saw what was going on. If I didn’t feel comfortable with it, I didn’t have to do anything and I could decide if I wanted to come back for date No. 2 or not,” Madison said.
The TV personality said: “I thought he was really smart, I really looked up to him, so I liked him, and it wasn’t that the idea of possibly having sex with him turned me off that much – I know that’s not relatable to a lot of people because they’re like, ‘Oh, he’s an old man, gross.'”
“It was more the group aspect that was really out of my comfort zone and just the feeling of, ‘Wow, OK, that happened. Everyone knows it happened,” Madison reflected on the disturbing encounter. “I suddenly felt like everyone would know about me, and I was shocked by it.”
After the shocking private moment, she reportedly felt it was time to ask Hefner if she could move into the Playboy Mansion.
“I was like, ‘You can’t take that back, so I might as well get what I came for,’” Madison explained. “I felt like by putting myself in the place and getting what I wanted out of the situation, I was demanding respect in a way. I felt like if I didn’t do that, I would just be haunted by this experience.”
