Why Elton John wanted to kill suicide after he withdrew from tour

The Music Legend has released a new album, Who believes in Engelen?With Brandi Carlile, and he praised her because he was the reason he continued.
John explained during an interview with Zane Lowe for Apple Music 1: “I knew that I no longer wanted to make the same album … I wanted the album to move forward because I always try to look out.
“If I had just made another record from Elton John, I would have killed myself.
“I needed her, I needed her talent, her energy, her humor and her brilliant texts. I have two of the largest copywriters in the world: Bernie Taupin and Brandi Carlile.
“The lyrics for me, if you can’t write great songs for those, then that is my great talent to be able to interpret those beautiful lyrics quickly.
“When we went to work, it was like, whoosh, as an express train.”